dear god

dear god, if today i lose my hope please remind me that your plans are better than my dreams.....

fall in love with someone who wants you

 fall in love with someone who wants you, who waits for you.

who understands you even in the madness, someone who helps you, and guides you, someone who is your support, your hope.

fall in love with someone who talks with you after a fight....

time for overtaking

sometimes i just feel like no one actually likes me.

like no one asks to take pics with me, i have to ask.

i feel awkward in convos, because i have to join them because no one comes up to me. i feel like no one actually likes me or likes being friends with me. and that everyone just fake it.

I'm just the fat girl that everyone is nice to because they feel bad that she's so fucking ugly.

Dear myself

 I'm sorry i'm sad sometimes and don't know why.

I'm sorry I push people away. I'm sorry I'm scared and confused.

I'm sorry i let you get hurt.

I'm sorry it's hard some time to get motivated.

I am sorry I make you yell and get angry.

I'm sorry it's hard to smile. I'm sorry you don't laugh the same.

I'm sorry I make you long for things you can't have. sorry I can't help you...

I'm sorry I'm me.

you lost me

one day you Will Miss me, my silly photos, random calls and undorable question you will realize that you were important person to me and you will feel so lonely without me even when all of your friends around you, you know why? cause with all your crowded friends you eill never find someone gives you energy,care,love and attention that i gave to you.

the day you miss me, the day you realize that i was the only person who truly cares aboout how you doing, the only one who loves you for nothing, i really wait for nothing just appreciation

maybe i was over care person, maybe i gave you attention more than what you deserve. you will realize and regret, regret every single time you treated me crvelly, every time you told me " stop asking you are super annoying " you Will regret every time you pushed me away, every time i told you how was your day and you treaded me greedy you will regret all that

I'm leaving and you lost me....

for my dear mother

Happy birthday to you, may God always give you health and more patience for you.

thank you for loving me and my sisters with all my heart and your love will never be replaced ma'am.

I'm sorry I can't be a child that you can be proud of but I always try to make you always happy mom in my way.

once again happy birthday to my beloved mother i love you <3

read this when your sad

 let it out. go ahead. you don't deserve what's happening to you, but that doesn't mean you should stop being nice. you can find joy in spreading it to others, and while some may find it fun to bring you down, it's slowly destroying their soul. talk ti god. only he knows what your going through, no one else can really help you except for him. take a shower. listen to happy music, not sad music. jam out. read a book, take a break from your phone. write a to-do list. doodle write in your bullet journal. cry into someone's arms. in a year, it won't matter as long as you have alot of people in your life who love you <3

Loving everything about you

 I love everything about you. I love your laugh, your smile, the way you look at me, your touch, and your perfect personality. I just can't believe that we met by chance and everything was so perfect. 

Do you know??

 do u know that i love u?

i probably already told u, but i'm going to keep saying it. there are no lies in these words, not one bit. ur smile keeps me alive.

it is one more reason to keep fighting.

i would give u my soul for comfrot, even if it leaves me dark and cold. And when i hold u close, i can feel ur heart beat fast, and i think to myself...

i've found that "someone" at last.

love of my life

 i looked for love and looked love and never did quite found it. the love found me. when i first meet you i knew you was the love of my life. i said to my self am i ready for this or not. so i said yes. we had our ups and downs. that nade our love so strong. my heart was so empty. now its so full of love from you and for you. its like i am living a dream and if i am what i been looking for my whole life and i didn't find you. you found me. i never want to live my life with out you, because my life would be so empty. i love you with my heart and i will love forever even after i die i will still love you

How i feel

 How can i just forget everything. How can i just forget that me and you ever happened? All the things you ever, all the music we ever shared. All the phone calls and the messages. They haf to mean something at one poin and it hurts too much to let it all go. I can't pretend that it all never Happened. All those years full of memories. It's not right. This all isn't right. It wasn't supposed to be like this. People tell me just to let it all go and that you are a terrible person and that i don't need you. But you are not a terrible person that's just it, you aren't. And i do need you. I don't want anyone else i wanted you.i don't want to make memories with someone else, i want to keep making memories with you and now i can't. I wanted you to be a best friend, and a king, and a good guy that i would be there for you 24/7 for whatever you needed. I wanted it to be you. Why isn't it you. Why did you do this to me.

Why?